I have been MIA and for that my apologies. I have been going through a family struggle that greatly affects me, but is not my story to tell. With that being said, I want to catch you up on my goings and comings.
I have pictures of my first race that my DH took for me. Notice the dace of happiness at the end.
I am the one in blue with the stroller.
1:03 Finish On 09/29/13
I finished a second 5K on November 3rd, Cliff Hanger. It was a lot different then the race for Charlie’s House. It was hard and I was alone! My son refused to go with me in the stroller this time and wanted to stay with my husband. When the race started, I tried to do a walk / run interval and it didn’t work. I was still having some troubles with my shoes. I started to do my three minute run and felt what I thought was a tag stabbing me in the back. “But”, I say to myself, “I am wearing tagless clothing.” I ran a little bit more and realized it was a nerve; that’s not good. So I stopped running and started walking as fast as I could.
After a while of getting board with that, I tried to run again. I have found out that it easier to job then to walk fast. It hurt too much and I stopped jogging. I was sad, angry, frustrated, depressed. I had been working so hard on my couch to 5K (C25K) and this was the only progress I made? This is the moment that my therapy, training, and support I have received from others kicked it.
I had lamented to my husband about my fears of not doing well and meeting my goals. I felt at the time my goals were completely realistic: a 5K in 48 minutes. He asked me, “Are you doing this run to meet your goals or to finish the 5K and enjoy the process?” So like a ten year old and my best Eeyore impersonation I answered, “To enjoy the process”. But really inside I wanted that sense of accomplishment, that look at what I did, not just “enjoy the process”. So when I realized that I was not going to impress everyone what my awesome athleticism, I remembered to enjoy the process and do what I can do. I tried very hard to silence “Msz. Perfect” and decided to “Just Do It” and I did it.
It was a difficult run, much harder then Charlie’s house. It has switch backs and hills. When I got one mile in, the runners were coming back the other way for the finish. Bummer. After I got over my need to achieve, I really started to enjoy the scenery. It was so beautiful. The brightly colored leaves were falling from the trees and sailing to the ground gently and like a whirling dervish all at the same time. The air was crisp and smelled wonderful. My body was moving and I felt healthy. It became at times, a walking meditation and appreciation. Looking back, that was more success then winning the race. I learned a valuable lesson that again you think someone would have clued me in on or maybe it was obvious I don’t know.
It takes time and practice to transition from a treadmill to asphalt. There is a big difference in the two. I have also decided that in the short run I may not be able to run a 5K outside and need to stay on the treadmill. If that is the case to save my knees and other valued body parts, I am O.K. with that. The only thing that I really wish was different was that they had finisher medals. I would pay extra for one of those things dang it. Oh well, at the Mother’s Day 5K everyone gets a metal. I am so excited to receive one!
I am the one with the blue arms in the middle.
1:06 Finish on 11/3/13